I am quite smitten with a particular
T1D blogger. Yesterday I read
her post about some questions a T1Parent had asked, and it made me think (which is why I like her blog). I'd never considered myself as my Bird's pancreas, but it's fitting - I think that is why I am so anal about controlling and worrying over her. I really appreciate this woman's honesty and reassurance.
Today,
her post made me cry. She's pregnant and often writes about how Type 1 affects her pregnancy. One of the fondest dreams I have is seeing my babies have babies of their own. When LilBird was diagnosed, my mind raced with worry for her future. Somewhere inside me, I clung to the idea that 'it's manageable, she'll be okay.' Where I was hung up was
the babies. Now, I can't predict the future, but every mama wants her baby girl to eventually become a mama, too. I want that so badly it almost hurts. And not just for them to have babies, but to have them naturally with confidence, without complications and interventions ... the way babies are supposed to be born. LilBird's birth in our home was the culmination of all my pregnancy and childbirth education and desires as a strong woman, the perfect example to my girls. It was a huge victory for me on so many fronts. Type 1 Diabetes has nearly crushed my dearest dream for her. It won't be easy for her. It might not be safe for her.
It might even make her not want to have children of her own. It absolutely breaks my heart.
Today, her post made me cry. She's pregnant and often writes about how Type 1 affects her pregnancy. One of the fondest dreams I have is seeing my babies have babies of their own. When LilBird was diagnosed, my mind raced with worry for her future. Somewhere inside me, I clung to the idea that 'it's manageable, she'll be okay.' Where I was hung up was the babies. Now, I can't predict the future, but every mama wants her baby girl to eventually become a mama, too. I want that so badly it almost hurts. And not just for them to have babies, but to have them naturally with confidence, without complications and interventions ... the way babies are supposed to be born. LilBird's birth in our home was the culmination of all my pregnancy and childbirth education and desires as a strong woman, the perfect example to my girls. It was a huge victory for me on so many fronts. Type 1 Diabetes has nearly crushed my dearest dream for her. It won't be easy for her. It might not be safe for her. It might even make her not want to have children of her own. It absolutely breaks my heart.
Shauna, Look at me, 3 healthy beautiful babies!! Lots of work but it was well worth it!! I am sure Lil Bird will want to have babies! By the time she wants to have babies it will be easier for sure!
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